This post was written on 20th January 2008. It's now July 2015 on the day I hit the "publish" button - one hell of a pregnant pause! It's also the first time I've read this blog in 7 years! I wanted to publish it though, as I reflect on what a difference 7 years makes! I quit the PhD eventually, before it killed me (and no, I still haven't regretted that decision, best part of a decade later!)! I'm still in my lovely band, (though the line up has shifted and gelled into a different shape), MS has been trying to take over where the PhD left off in the breaking of my brain (but not without a feckin' fight! see: http://myelin-meltdown.blogspot.co.uk/), and my spectacular little boy turned seamlessly into a flipping gorgeous young man, who's now being spectacular at university! :D
So anyway, without further waffle, here's the original post from 20-01-08.....(the story so far: I had just had a much dreaded PhD supervisor meeting!)...
Well, I don't think I did manage to justify my intellectual existence today! I went into my meeting, determined to be grown up and stable, but as soon as my boss asked me if I was ok (like, as I walked in through the door) I totally unravelled, blurted out that I was very f**ing far from ok and fell to bits!
So anyway, without further waffle, here's the original post from 20-01-08.....(the story so far: I had just had a much dreaded PhD supervisor meeting!)...
Well, I don't think I did manage to justify my intellectual existence today! I went into my meeting, determined to be grown up and stable, but as soon as my boss asked me if I was ok (like, as I walked in through the door) I totally unravelled, blurted out that I was very f**ing far from ok and fell to bits!
Well, the meeting could only get better from that point on. So, with soggy, snotty sleeves and only slightly ragged breath I thrashed it out with him and now feel a tiny bit better (like from desperate to merely despondent - a clear improvement!).
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